What a lesson

Never did I imagine how much growing I would do while studying the book of Hebrews for 12 weeks! Twelve weeks ago the SS class that I lead elected to start a study of Hebrews using the study guide written by Max Lucado.
Lesson 1 Jesus Understands Us
Lesson 2 Keep the Faith
Lesson 3 God's Rest
Lesson 4 Jesus, Our High Priest

The first four lessons were fine and dandy. I was feeling pretty darn good about myself and my walk. Maybe even a bit proud... Don't you just love how God keeps you humble though, I know I do (Sarcasm just doesn't translate enough here!)

Lesson 5 Perseverance
Lesson 6 God Forgives and Forgets
Lesson 7 A Sacrifice for Sins

About this time is when I really started feeling the pressure as you may be able to look back through my post and see. Wait, you can't because I didn't post a single thing in February! That Lesson 5 on Perseverance really got me hard.

Lesson 8 Confidence in Christ
Lesson 9 Faith in God's Promises
Lesson 10 Suffering Serves a Purpose (Good heaven's don't ever ask to see discipline!)
 Lesson 11 Fear of the Lord
Lesson 12 Serving Others

I have always asked God to open my eyes to His blessings. Around early March I asked God to show me where He was trying to discipline me. S.O.S. I CHANGED MY MIND! PLEASE STOP SHOWING ME! This is at least what I was screaming inside.

God has revealed to me that I am still an impatient, immature Christian who needs Him desperately. Those who seek to be enlightened should give Christianity a try. Studying God's word will certainly make you self reflect and grow as a human being. How thankful I am to know that Jesus paid the ultimate price for my sins so that I don't have to spend an eternity in Hell. He is our High Priest, the ultimate and final sacrifice, AND He is all we need. 

Next week we start the book of James. The first two lessons have me a bit scared. Growing through Trials and Enduring Temptation. At least I have the Confidence in Christ to sustain me. I also know and believe that all we go through will ultimately work together for our good.

Growing Weary

It's been a while since I sat down to write. I must admit that I have been going through some winter blues. I'm tired. I feel like progress isn't being made in any area of my life. My faith which has always been strong, is weary.

I think it hit me this morning while I was teaching our Sunday School lesson. We are studying the book of Hebrews and this week was on Hebrews chapter 11 otherwise known as the Hall of Faith. God has always taken care off my needs, always. Why would I question His plan and timing now?

This week will be full of tearful pleads for God to show Himself to me. I know God has not left me, I just need to get back to Him. Please keep me in your prayers this week as my heart is just full of despair. I don't like it. I do thank God that this is not my normal and I feel compelled to pray for those who are depressed.